What do i mean to you now?

So what am i to her now? am i her friend? am i someone she used to love? or am i just somebody that she used to know? it just really bugs me. i dont know why it does but all i know is that it does.i mean im sure it would bug anybody. not knowing what you meant to someone. i mean, since we havent talked in so long, its become very unclear. like really. i cant say that i didnt put myself into this situation. i always knew that this would have happened, had i let it develop into something a lot more complicated. but this was one of the reasons why i did hesitate at the start. cos it was always a question of whether or not i wanted to take the risk of losing a friend. and obviously i took that risk. now all i want to know, is can i get that friend back