Exhausted

I am both mentally and physically exhausted. it is very evident by the look on my face everyday when i come to school. there have been so many things on my mind right lately. some of which i wish i didnt care about anymore, but i still do. the main thing on my mind is still her, unfortunately. i dont know why. even though i know things between me and her are long over, and by that i dont just mean the love relationship, i still find it hard to handle. losing a friend isnt easy, and watching her run her life into the ground while i just sit on the sidelines is even more difficult.if she does somehow read this, i really hope that she understands that i dont love her anymore at all. and ive gotten over it, the reason why its still on my mind is because it is hard to lose a friend. all i want to do, is just to become friends again. nothing more. i dont want her to crash and burn while i sit on the silde lines and not say or do anything. why cant we just be friends again? cos right now it seems as though a real friend is something she really needs.
i once saw a tweet that said, 'Ex asking to be friends after break up is like kidnappers asking you to "keep in touch" after letting you go.' maybe its true, but i mean ive had other girls who ive had similar relations with. and in the end, we still are friends. so why must she be different?
anyway, the other things on my mind are just the usual. exams, work, tests, etc.... all of these combined with the thoughts of the past, is really taking a toll on me. and if it doesnt end soon, its not going to be a pretty site