Closure, help and trust.

Finally got some form of closure. found out that some people are just so quick to judge. she was an amazing liar. she made everyone believe the things she wanted them to believe, and to make me seem like the bad guy. i wanst the one who gave up in the end. i had my own problems to face that she couldnt understand. the people who judge are always the ones that always wonder why you have a trust issue. and the answer is extremely simple. why trust the people who judge, when all they do is judge you when you need the help? even though she had more ex's then me, she still newer to the game then i am. when the person that your dating is in the same class as you, there are just some basic things that you shouldnt do. i guess you could call it basic dating etiquette. some examples are that, you should just hug someone of the opposite gender in front of your lover. another one is to just show that your kinda taken already, just to make your partner feel more secure. some of the things she never understood which obviously made me upset. it isnt rocket science. we all have feelings, be it guy or girl. i guess she hasnt really reached that mature mindset yet, which is why she didnt do the stuff. cos she may have seen it as friendly, but at my age, it means something else. plus she gave me all this bullshit reason. im just sick of it. i'm the kind of person who if you lose my trust, you'll almost never get it back. so ever since the first incident, all i needed was assurance. something i provided to her in abundance, yet none was provided for me from her. some of the thoughts that have allowed me to gain some closure. although it obvious, from me writing this, that i havent gotten full closure. the rest takes time i guess.