Mind fucked

Every time i see her post things like that, it just makes me sad cos i know it isnt about me. its not like i want it to be about me. it just sucks to now know that i am nothing to her anymore. from being everything to being nothing. i dont even know what we are anymore, since i havent talked to her in months even though i see her almost everyday. are we friends? are we acquaintances? or are we just stranger again? i really dont know. but my guess is, that its as good as just saying that we are strangers again. someone i used to know. will we ever talk again? unlikely i think. i promised myself to just ignore it by the time i finish my first year. and by then if neither of us talk again and become friends once more, then we really will become strangers again. i think one of the biggest reasons why i cant move on is cos i have to read the shit she posts and it just always breaks my heart over and over again. like as if breaking my heart on my fucking birthday wasnt enough. just feel so mind fucked. its been far too long. fuck life