Feelings

sometimes i wonder if im just weird or the feelings that i have are just felt by me and now one else will ever feel the same in this situation. maybe i'm just paranoid and shit, but sometimes the smallest of shitty things will piss me off. maybe if someone else was me, and they know i feel, they might understand. and even agree that my actions tat i carried out would be justified. but i guess i'll never know and i'll just forever think i'm weird. some tmes, i just wish i was dead so that i didn't have to deal with this bullshit. i hate feeling things because i know that in this world, it will never be possible to have the good without the bad.