Overthinking

i over think things. there is no way i can deny it. and i really hate that part of myself because every time i actually care about someone or something, i over think think certain actions that they do or dont do. every time i do overthink something, it never turns out for the better. i think one of the main contributing factors is that things then to linger in my mind. some times i just wonder if what i think really is true. a girl once told me that whenever a girl thinks of someone, they tend to want to contact the person. well i guess i'm no longer thought of by her. its just such a sad thought. i know shes probably busy, but what happened to the good old times? i dont even know if she even bothers reading this blog anymore. maybe i'm just slowly falling out of her life. i really really dont want that to happen. i used to love her, i still do and i always love her. i just hope that someday things will go back to the way they were. it would really put my mind at peace. last time when we used to talk a lot, i wasnt like this. every time i was with her, she would take my breath away and she would always make me happy. things just dont seem ti be the same anymore. i think if i dont bother trying to talk to her for a day, she would even notice or care anymore sadly. this would have not have been the case last time. in the past, she would never let me go a day without talking to her, for a short while, i thought it was a bit annoying, but then i started to enjoy it. but now, she just doesnt seem to want to talk to me. sadly, the time when it first started, wasnt too long ago. so if she does read this, i want to tell her that i  love her and i miss her. she will always have a place in my heart.