you know when you like someone, you get this feeling that you know its love. its a feeling that you cant describe, and its unique feeling that you know is love but you just dont know how to describe.
recently i had met this girl. she was almost identical to me. we talked the same way, we had the same thoughts on life and how we treated things, we knew exactly what both of us needed in times of need and we both generally felt the same way on most things.
we recently entertained the thought of getting together. and to be honest we dated for a while to see if things could work out. but in the end, obviously, it didnt seem to work out. hence the reason why i am writing this post.
the thing is, i thought i liked her, but the regular feeling wasnt there. and for the longest time, i had been thinking about why is that so. there have been a few possibilities. one of which was that maybe since we were so alike, maybe it was like loving myself. but i mean, evidently i dont really love myself that much or at least i found it hard to love myself. another possibility was that maybe it i just wanted it because we were so similar and it seem like the natural thing to do.
either way, the feeling wasnt there. and i dont know what to do. my brain is so fucked right now. i dont know what to do and i need help. anything would do. maybe just some advice would be nice.
i'll have to sort this out myself as usual. in the end, we are all born alone and will die alone
