Moving on

What choice do i have left? I mean, you have left me with no other choice. so then what else can i do? I thought we could have made this work. but you didnt even wanna try even though you started all of this. i dont blame you i guess. all i wanted to say was that i'm sorry i didnt turn out to be that perfect person that i'm sure you expected of me. i'm far from perfect. I have a lot of internal conflicts and emotional baggage. thanks for all the care you have showed me, and i wished you still did care. but obviously you've gotten sick of my problems. i dont blame you. i dont like being this way. i dont know why i am this way, but i am. all i ever wanted was someone who cared and loved me. thats why this hurts so much. To lose something that meant so much to me just hurts, and my emotional baggage isnt helping. It was great while it lasted, and just give me time. i will eventually go back to my previous state, before i met you. you've always wondered why i'm always so sad. well, i dont have the answer to that question. i just am i guess. Its not by choice, but with things like these constantly happening, how am i suppose to be happy. To me, the only thing that i have ever truly wanted was someone who care and loved me, so it just hits close to home. i dont have any other way to describe it. I'm just sorry it had to turn out this way and i'm sorry i'm not perfect and i couldnt make you happy. but you can't expect a sad person to make you happy....