The wait

I'm just waiting for that day. when my phone rings and its her. the week's almost up. i hope she hasn't distanced herself so much to the point where she doesnt care anymore. i did all this for her. but after looking at everything in retrospect, i do feel a bit hurt. i mean, everyone always says that you should treat people the way you want them to treat you. i tried to be the best friend that i could. i mean, i tried to help her when i barely knew her last time. and whenever she was worried about something, i would do some snooping around to make sure that she didnt have anything to worry about. i tried to pull all the strings for her. even when i barely knew her. but now when i need help, she tried but gave up. i wished she'd tried a bit more, or at least give me another chance. everyone needs help sometimes, even superman. i just hope that that day comes soon. i dont want to lose a friend. i dont even know why i tried so much when i first met her. she just seemed like as if she needed someone she could trust or just a good true friend. i guess you could say me and her weren't too different. i guess thats why i tried. so i didn't expect her to give up. but i dont blame her. i mean, i was really sad, and i guess only someone who really wanted me to be fine would have stayed and tried till i got better. thats all i had wanted. i'm sure she still cares somewhat. or at least thats the thing really resonating in my head. i just hope that she remember what i had done for her, and maybe that will warrant a second chance. they always say, you get what you give. i hope it happens. and i hope that my phone will ring soon. i just wish she would listen to me. there are so many thoughts that i want to express or get off my chest, but when i do, she gets angry and distances herself. but she always told me to not bottle it inside. so what do i do? there's no one to listen, and thats just what i need right now. i can't lie, i'm still sad, but slowly getting better, and i'm just gonna bottle it up right now